So.
I've fallen in love with the saddest song in the world.
I actually feel like crying pretty much every time I hear it.
And... you know, because I'm psychotic, I have had it on loop for pretty much 24 hours.
Here are the words. You can listen to it on the July/August playlist.

If it makes you less sad
I will die by your hand
I hope you find out what you want
I already know what I am
And if it makes you less sad
We'll start talking again
And you can tell me how vile
I already know that I am

I'll grow old
And start acting my age
I'll be a brand new day
In a life that you hate
A crown of gold
A heart that's harder than stone
And it hurts a whole lot
But it's missed when it's gone

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad you that can forgive
Only hoping as time goes
You can forget

If it makes you less sad
I'll move out of the state
You can keep to yourself
I'll keep out of your way
And if it makes you less sad
I'll take your pictures all down
Every picture you paint
I will paint myself out
It's as cold as a tomb
And it's dark in your room
When I sneak to your bed
To pour salt in your wounds
So call it quits
Or get a grip
Say you wanted a solution
You just wanted to be missed

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget
So you can forget
You can forget

You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white like the skin
Stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin
Standing trial for your sins
Holding onto yourself the best you can
You are the smell before the rain
You are the blood in my veins

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget

Yeah.
It doesn't help that I finished Eclipse.
I no longer feel sad for Bella. At all.
I actually think she's an idiot.
And Edward is annoying.
And Jacob Black's pain has put me in my emo mood.
Wow. He definitely puts my issues in perspective.
Like I was reading and listening to that song.
It was probably the most depressing combination.

So conclusion.
I love Jacob Black...
The End.

Other than that.
There are no new developments.

I shouldn't be allowed to blog in the summer.
All I do is ramble about things that don't matter.
But I know tomorrow I'll be doing the same thing.
Creeping on my brother's computer just to use this as a way to sort out the mess in my head.
And it's such a big mess.

Ok I'll stop.
Laater.

EDIT:
So I was creeping the Eclipse page on Stephenie Meyer's website... And the Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot is on her Eclipse playlist.
WOW. That makes so much sense it hurts my heart a little.

posted by PsychoKris at 3:19 PM | 0 Comments